While it was obvious that he cared for me, I still had no idea how he felt about me sexually. He made a habit of sitting on my bed, leaning against me... and asking me to rub powder on his back. Obviously I didn't mind any of those things. Late one evening, something happened that changed our relationship forever. Our on-duty instructors always toured the halls immediately after Lights Out. Johnny, knowing full well that the showers were off limits after Taps, had waited until the very last. I don't even remember much of what Grace and I do in bed; I seem to fall asleep every time we..." Grace?" Dr. Roth interrupted gently. "Is that her name? Grace... ?" Yes, Doctor, Grace Archer." Why that randy old... , " Judith murmured to herself. "This is getting interesting. I want to hear in detail how this relationship began."I tried to explain how I had been ogling Grace for several days and her catching me looking."Yes. Classic. Then what happened?" For several days, nothing," I recalled.. There was no subtlety to his barbs. If Ethan hadn’t been under so many other pressures, it would have been positively laughable. He wondered if Wayne had always been this ridiculous or if current circumstances had made him lose his touch.Still, Ethan was under a lot of pressure and the twin incentives of Wayne’s presence and knowing Renee wanted him to follow made each second seem to stretch on forever. Ethan wished to God he knew how to make Wayne shut up and go away.Then, suddenly, he did. Who are you? I finally asked. I know its cliché,d, but it was all I could think of. Im you, she replied. Actually, she added after a short pause, Im part of you. The part that writes all those kinky stories. The part that thinks of sex every second of every day. The part that has convinced you its possible to make money while doing something you love. I was so stunned I could barely speak. You&hellip, Youre&hellip, She smiled. Thats right. Im Barbie. Barbie Lez. I had always thought of my.