This isn't happening, I told myself. I'm still dreaming. I've got to be dreaming. The dream will end soon and I can wake up.I felt amazingly tired and...sleepy. A few minutes later I went back to bed, feeling depressed and afraid. As I went to sleep I felt rather than saw a pulsing blue glow playing over me. I don't really want to sleep but I have to. Sleep will make everything better. It will soon be morning. Then I can wake up and it will be all right. A good rest will sort me out. SundayI woke. I had felt your touch on my arm earlier when I was getting down the wine glasses, and I saw it when you tried to press your knee against mine as we sat side by side on the couch drinking the wine. I gave myself a little pep talk, “You can do this. Don’t give in. Another hour or two and he will be gone again; walking right out of your life, like he always does.” So, the night draws to an end and here we are on the porch saying our finally good byes. You linger. I press my back against the side. En aadaigal anaithaiyum kayatinen, ulle aninthu iruntha karupu nira pentiyaiyum serthu kayati nirvaanamaaga avan kan mun nindren. Kanini velicham matum thaan irunthathu, athil nirvaanamaaga nindru kondu maganuku nirvana katchi kanbithen. Magan vaayai pilanthu kondu amma ungal mulai perithaaga irukirathu endru sollinaan.Naan sirithu vittu vaa da chelam ammavai matter sei endru sollinen. Iruvarum nirvaanamaaga kati pidithu kondu padukaiyil pirandom.Magan en kuthiyil kai vaithu thadava. The sales girl fully opened the door to my luck. Deepti had already removed her blouse and was in her bra now. My jaw dropped on seeing her bra cladded body. Her breasts were perfect and hidden in her bra.Deepti realized that I had seen her but gently closed the door. My heart was beating hard and I had a grand erection. I moved away from there to avoid looking like a creep. She came out in her jeans and shirt. I avoided eye contact with her but kept talking to her to make things normal.We went.