"Why weren't you replying? Are you mad at me?" No." Then what's wrong? I missed you yesterday. I was tempted to drop by your apartment." Please don't,... I said. He looked at me, confused and hurt. "Why?" He asked. I kept silent until I mustered the courage to say, "This isn't right. We have to stop this, whatever this is. You're married."We stood there for few seconds, frozen. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." He hugged me so tight and apologised again. I turned to look at him and apologised, too.. Jane craved this, and he always saw to her every need both during sessions and without. Jane wondered how long it would be today. He never told her how long she would be on display for him, sometimes it was short, others he kept her like that for hours staring openly at her breasts and exposed pussy. She always got very wet as he sat there unmoving. There was something about being on display that thrilled her. Jane thought about the website he had built with pictures of her kneeling like this. Jared eventually walked around and I took him back into my mouth. It felt so good to have his cock literally stretching out my lips, my tongue licking the bottom of his thick purple head. My left hand supporting my body while my right hand stroked his cock and played with his balls. It didn't take long for me to cum for the first time. One, I was revved up and ready for this and two, Tom was a good little pussy eater. I shook and screamed and convulsed for a good 5-10 seconds before. Each day I wonder. I wonder what it would have been like. To just have, the briefest of moments to be with you. To be a whole person again. To be a real person with a life again. To be what used to be me. I wonder about a life that can never be now. A life that, that by contrast, is so different than what I have now. I can not hope for this to be as I would like it. Doing so would mean not considering you and your situation. So instead I attempt to get through the day as best I can. I muddle.