I said to Monica how do you want to do this, She let go of me and took a sip of her drink, well we could get you undressed and both walk in the lounge...naked to see what the reaction is, I looked at her and said they wouldn’t know where to look first laughing, she leant forward and undid my top and took it off releasing my boobs to which she said oh yes very nice darling and squeezed them, yours look fantastic I said to her and she said do want to feel them, I nodded and reached forward they. He felt weak, and undoubtedly he'd lost a lot of weight. Slowly, he became aware of the pressing need of nature. Achmed carefully hobbled to the toilet. Even that was a humiliation; the chains were fastened such that he had to sit even to urinate, with one arm and one leg outstretched toward his bed. For perhaps the hundredth time, he thought of drowning himself, but even that act was made impossible by his shackles. He pulled up his pants and hopped back to the bed. He sat down heavily,. ’ I stopped pacing and tried not to cry. ‘I want to be loved so badly it hurts. It hurts a lot. But I can’t let myself believe that just because you’re having some kind of mid- life crisis or worse. . . feeling lonely, suddenly you love me.’ I was starting to get angry now. ‘I’m just supposed to fall into your arms in gratitude because you finally feel something and take pity on the fat girl!’ ‘Stop it!’ It was his turn to be angry. ‘I don’t feel sorry or pity. And I don’t expect you to just. .. she didn't want to go with him any more, The river held no relief for her. His boat would take her no place she wanted to go.Her wrists were chafed and bleeding, it was the start of her seventh day in handcuffs. She welcomed the pain, it meant she was still alive, Eckert had taught her that. Watching him sleep, it was easier to believe he was only nineteen. She'd thought he was older than she was, just from the confidence he'd displayed in everything he did. And yet ... she suspected he was.