I lifted my hand from her shoulder and looked into the distance. Which in this case was a battered building wall not so far away. What if she really c...uld see if I was lying? Or why couldn’t she?“I do care a whole lot about them. After all, without their help I wouldn’t be here studying.”I was surprised to feel the tip of Linnea’s fingers wipe my cheek. “There’s nothing wrong in admitting that you care about some people, Stian.”What was that supposed to mean? Even if I had been engaged to Saga. Chris asked for us all to be here. We saw Shahia this morning, and we know something is terribly wrong. Then we all saw Lisa falling apart. I know that we are all very worried. Chris says he's going to explain."He went and sat down on the floor next to Lisa. Chris saw him reach out and take Lisa's hand, checking that she was okay. She gave Joe a smile and turned back to Chris, giving him a look of encouragement."Thanks. I know you've all been wondering what's going on between Lisa, Shahia and. He pumps a few times then rolls off and goes to sleep.Wham-bam-thank-you-mam, that's it. No spark! No feeling! No nothing, except laying there in a wet spot trying to go to sleep.Is this it, I thought? Had we become our parents? "Quiet, George the kids may hear. Not tonight, I have a headache."At twenty-two did I have forty or fifty more years of this? As the days and weeks rolled by this became our norm. Then thoughts creped into my head, maybe we had been to young and this was a mistake on. Alan loves you, honey, he really does. He has told me that you are more than he could ever hope for in a daughter and I have seen the way he cherishes you. And I also know that you love him. Hell, you are calling him Dad now and he loves that. He says he feels like this is his family, or at least he did. And he wants that back." So do I, Mom. I would do anything to turn back the clock to before this all happened. I want Alan to feel like he is part of the family–I want him to be part of the.