His Aunt Jane hadconsidered that their powder blue hue might be too 'butch' for such asissily made-over figure, but then she relented, not wanting to ...etcarried away with her transformation. Jimmy's feet wore candy-apple redMary Janes, which pretty much completed his outfit of the day. AlthoughI should mention that he was powdered and perfumed to the max, which hehated because he considered himself a tough kind of guy and hated beingmade to resemble a pretty doll that modern girls wouldn't. "??? ? ?We froze for a moment, there in the gym, looking into each others eyes, and he could tell that I was stronger than him in every way. I gave him another gentle smile and shook my head from side to side. "You are going to be such a great fuck."??? ?"What if I don't do it. What if I don't do anything you say?" ??? ?"Then you will be hurt very badly. You will suffer, and you will still in the end do what I say. UYou cannot beat me, Chad. But I can beat you in every form of the word. I can. Belita didn’t say anything for a while. Then she let out a mirthless laugh. “Alright, good point. I dinnae think it’s something ye can just talk me out of it though. The feeling might not have merit, but I’m still feeling it. I lost a dozen of my crew. I’m the captain. I can’t help but feel like it’s my fault. If I’d done things differently maybe this wouldn’t have happened.”“Sometimes, you don’t make any mistakes at all, but still lose,” Will said.“That’s just a nicer way of saying that doing. I honestly didn’t know if I had a place in the world until I was in my early 20’s.It was during my first vision quest. I was doing it in some swampy woods in the fall near a river. I was nude with just a blanket, my k-bar knife and a gallon of water. I was in the middle of a large bush so humans wouldn’t find me. It was a time of fasting and prayer. A time of closing in on oneself and shutting down the chattering monkey mind while becoming ever more aware of the world around you. If you were.