" she said, sounding sincere. "That's ok, but I do want to know if you two did anything. I mean 40 minutes, come on, something must have happened." I ...ooked at her and she seemed a little uncomfortable so I said, "Hey, it's ok, whatever you two might have done, honest, it's ok, I'd just like to know. Did you two just talk, did you kiss, did he feel you, or you him? I mean babe, your skirt was already off." "Well, your right, we didn't just talk for 40 minutes, I guess you could say we got a. I could see what she saw in Werner. He was only 30. He was in very good shape and his face was pleasant. Werner had an air of confidence and a strong dominant personality that really turned my wife on.After dinner Dolly poured us each another glass of wine and we moved into the family room. Despite the elephant in the room Werner never allowed the conversation to wane and I never felt uncomfortable. We finished our wine and Werner took the lead."Dolly," he said politely, "why don't you draw the. I fight the feelings of loneliness in my own head. I bottle them and wait for them to set me on fire from the inside. Sometimes I unleash them onto you. usually as I sit, sleepless and desperate in a parking lot. I pour my feelings out to you. knowing you have no answers. Just needing to tell someone other than my journal. And getting less than lukewarm responses in return. The same unsolvable problems that plague us.You leave me aching like no one else in so many ways. My body aches from long. With wages obscenely low, we hired a local young, single mother as our housekeeper and cook. She was fantastic and her young daughter became like a grandchild to us. Dora was an orphan and just a teenager herself when she had Anita. The girl was only four when her mother started working for us. It wasnt long before we decided to help Anita have a better chance in life and placed her in a private, bilingual school. She thrived in the school and in just a few years was speaking better English.