My mother, Narinder wanted to have a loving family environment but with Nilesh,my father this was not possible. In the beginning there had been good t...mes butnow things were just bad. It all started when he had got sacked from work andstarted drinking. Dad went out on the pretext of looking for work everyday but he always came home drunk. He was also becoming shameless, makingsexual advances upon her, grabbing her tits and so on, right in front of us. Iguess it was due to the frustration of not. A sky of such deep blue it was black. Set against the blue black were stars, stars unseen in his old sky. Stars unobstructed by the adverse effect of artificial light, the lights of man. A beautiful peaceful night to examine, to explore the shadows and contemplative places of the mind."Oh Man, look at that! Amazing! all those stars. What were we thinking? So many stars in this sky and so few in my time, still there but obscured by city lights, polluted air. What were we thinking?"The Cheese was. It worked for the outside world but it was truly hard on us. Jealousy was a bitch. And that bitch had me and my brother whipped in every sense of the word. Every time I brought a male home or Ryan brought a female home we kept to ourselves. But when that person left, everything changed. Id go into his room or hed come to mine. Anger and jealousy filled us. Anger at the world for not being accepting of our relationship and for forcing us to put up this facade. The sex that ensued was always full. If they didn't have jizz on them, I would take them home and hide them. I arrived and the gym was near empty, except for one guy shooting baskets. I found one of the bathrooms atthe other end of the place, away from the locker areas and showers. I managed to get into the last corner stall. There was someone in the stall next to it, but it didn't matter to me. I would just wait until they left before I started jerking off. I sat and started reading the familiar phrases on the walls, and looking.