As soon as he came I left, telling myself that I got my answer and that I was not made to play with dicks.But the need for cocks came back and I tried...again this time with a younger guy. We both sucked each other on his bed in 69 but I was just not having it. He asked me if he could at least finish me and I let him suck my cock until I came in his mouth and face.This time I knew... cocks - old or young - that was not for me!!!But... then I needed it again and found another guy online- this time. My wife was caught up with David and he appeared to be enjoying entertaining her as well. For a while, she would not be wondering about my being away. I was free to explore this dark erotic world with this dark erotic woman for a while longer. The warm compress came back over my eyes and forehead, and I was returned to the dark. Sunny carefully moved on top of me. It seemed like everything she did was designed to drive me wilder. She was sitting lightly astride me at my waist. I could feel her. .. well; I was just ready to eat dinner. I'm..." Hesitating, she continued, "Sir, I'm not open tonight but if you want to share my meager food you may."That night started a slow, fumbling relationship between the two. He sat silently, at a loss for words. After a few quiet questions from her he talked of his life, his love for the lost Martha, the pride he had in his son and the large lonely house he lived in. Dinner was plain food but prepared well and coffee afterwards was better than his. ”“So why keep doing it?”“Because I’m weak. There IS a solution, but in my mind, that solution might actually lead to even worse sin.”“Which solution?”“I could marry! As Paul says, it’s better to marry than to burn. But marriage, right now, to you or Tasha or whomever, would likely lead to disaster. I’m not ready to marry. Are you?”“No! I need to graduate first, obviously. Well, unless you want to transfer to Central Michigan!”“That’s impractical because of the tuition assistance I receive here;.