But the closer she felt to someone the more embarrassed she was about showing that side of herself. Maybe that was why she couldn't come right out and...tell Simon just how she felt. And because River was the best friend she had ever had she just couldn't let her know what she was planning on doing in her bunk tonight. So to drown out the sound of her "friend" as well as any noise she might make personally, she had set up a recorder to play some music she had bought the last time they were planet. From the first day I foolishly followed Daniel, Charlie and Bruce to their home. Not fighting back as best I could when they attacked me and sexually assaulted me. Even to the time that I let Bruce con me into going to his uncles house and wrestling with Bruce on the floor and Bruce ending up having unprotected sex with me. Yeah, that was dumb, yeah I should have known better. I still regret it seeing that Bruce's uncle was drunk in the bedroom and came out and caught us in the act. And even. Hank had been a little upset at the stares and whispers behind hands as people looked at him, Rav realizing what was bothering Hank, smiled kindly "its not your leg they are looking at, but a boy your size with a sword belted to your waist, dragging along side you, they are already whispering about the dagger and sword, Marti'en is having a grand time." Rav threw back his head and laughed as Trink strutted off with one of his pretties, he got more outragous every day thought Rav. Feeling. Her Gary... a modern teen age Oedipus... doomed by copulating with his own mother. She burrowed down in the covers, flinging herself over on her stomach to bury her face and head with pillows to smother the moving playing screen in her head that brought it all back in moving color.Somehow the day had worn on. All the tears had been cried. All the filthy epithets had been hurled at herself... all the nightmare played out over and over until she remembered every grisly detail and remembered how.