.. namely mine.)If I am to do this properly, I'm afraid I must bare my soul to you. Not a pretty sight, a bared soul. Especially mine. Still, not ever...thing in life is pretty. Whether you find the following tolerable or not, I urge you to peruse it all the way through.My first "Natural" was my lovely wife, Jennifer. The first time I laid eyes on Suzy, my second Natural, I just seemed to KNOW how easy it would be to enslave her. She's the breadwinner in the family, by the way. After inviting. My mother's favorite, in fact.I wasn't thinking very much about kindness at that point. After four months here, I decided I had to find a girlfriend. Sure, I had a girlfriend back home. So call me a creep, which I probably was. I was far from home, lonely, and horny.I didn't officially have a girlfriend back home, not really, at least I told myself I didn't, and that was almost as good as being true. So it wasn't as much of a stretch as you might think to decide that it was OK to find someone. Half in jest I said “what is it you want woman? Are you hoping to end up dead?” her answer sent ice into my blood, she said the single word “ultimately” She then explained that “it would be the ultimate to someone like me but” as she said before “a dead body can`t enjoy the pain,” and she wanted pain, huge quantities of it she went on that the last episode had been “the highest climax she had ever felt” and that she was” still living it now nearly two months after”. However, she also said her. Because of the restrictive work rules relationships were forbidden. We could only ever be like buddies. We flirted, but that is as far as it went. Sometimes we would go out for drinks with the rest of our group and it never progressed further because of fear of office gossip unfortunately. I was single at the time and had many fantasies about what it would be like with her. She changed jobs soon after and we lost contact.About a month later she came into my life again. I have always liked the.