. after Itorture you, and you beg for it!" The cold dead look in her eyes as shethreatened me struck me much more than any words she spoke. Finally, s...ereleased me just before I passed out, and I began coughing and sputteringto breathe again. After a few minutes, Cassia walked over to a bench andgrabbed a cloth to wipe away my tears and drool."See? I didn't even smear your makeup," she said as she showed me the wetcloth and smiled sweetly at me. "Permanent makeup. Come on. Let's get youup, so. Which kind of story is this one? Well, let me tell you, and you canjudge.My story starts when I was about sixteen years old, and I was not doingall that well.I had been struggling with my gender for as long as I could remember, butit seemed like lately I could not fight any more, and cross-dressedwhenever I could. Finally, I had reached a point where I wondered wheremy faith in God had gone, and having prayed to have this need taken fromme for years without an answer, I reached the conclusion. She wasdeliberately sharing it with me, so I'd feel a little better thatshe'd inadvertently exposed what was obviously for me adevastatingly shameful secret. She was watching me closely all thewhile she spoke, giving me a chance to recover from my paralyzingembarrassment. When she saw me finally take a deep breath shewalked over to hang my coat on a peg, still watching me, waitingfor me to say something."I'm not gay, Eva. I'm a transvestite, I guess. And... and...please don't tell Herb! . As its been nearly 2 weeks since my wife away and I never had any kind of sexual act on me I was getting hornier and hornier I thought to watch porn and jerk off but I didn’t like as I though porn stuff are only for bachelors, yeah and even I shared my feeling with my friend he suggested me to get a hooker since I was quit nervous for prostitution because I thought what if my relatives of in laws come to home suddenly or what if neighbours come to know all these things were running in my mind.