They then place white leather wristlets on each of my wrists that have a small steel circle attached to them, and then they have a matching pair of an...lets. A servant then brings my crown in; it’s not nearly as beautiful and large as my mother’s but it’s still gorgeous. It’s adorned with many diamonds and rubies and made of gold. I am left alone for the first time since waking up today, with the objects inside of me making me desperately want to touch myself but I cannot, so I touch my. “You said once that I could be without fear if I’m with someone who can protect me. I’m not sure that I agree with you about that. If I really thought someone would protect me against any and all, then I would know he or she loves me. I’d be afraid for them. It would be a fear of a different kind, but it would still be fear. I think I should know how to protect myself. That way I could stand beside my protector. I might still be afraid, but it would be a shared fear. It would be the kind of. " Dad, are you going to be okay? Mom insisted that we take you to the candlelight service like always, and that we leave you alone tonight, but if you want..."Reality sucks. I wished I could retreat back into my cocoon, but my bubble had dissolved and I knew I couldn't live there anymore. I interrupted him, "No, I'm going to be fine. I just miss your mother..." I struggled not to break down. "More than I can say, but I need some time to absorb all this. Don't come too early in the morning. I'll. In demselben Rot wie meineN?gel.##Am n?chsten Morgen war ich nicht wirklich weiter. Es war nicht so, dassjemand Fremdes mich steuerte. Ich erledigte nur allt?gliche Sachenautomatisch, ?ber die man nicht nachdachte. Anziehen etwa. Solange keinbesonderer Anlass anstand, dachte ich da nicht gro? dar?ber nach. Undgenau das machte ich immer noch. Nur das in meinem Fall dieseautomatische T?tigkeit dann OK gewesen w?re, w?re ich als Frau geborenworden.Ich machte tats?chlich nichts Ungew?hnliches. Nur.