The dictator was dead and gone but left the country in shambles; even though they were once an oil exporter. Different guerilla groups were fighting f...r control of the oil revenue and payoffs from the government for protection monies. The oil production industries were in shambles; the operators and executives had fled for their lives; kidnapping was almost a daily ritual.Food was almost nonexistent; pets were being eaten and farm animals needed to produce eggs, milk and continue livestock. He hadn't a clue what he could tell her except for the truth and he didn't want to go down that road in case Lisa started worrying about whether his sex life with her mother was happy. He didn't think she'd understand that men masturbate because they like to and need to, like breathing, eating or sleeping.At the restaurant the waitress smirked at him when he ordered the food and Philip suddenly realised she thought he'd pulled and was out with his toy-girl."I'll have a Holsten Pils and my. I need you to remember that. Nothing… no job, no distance, no separation… is ever going to change that. Maybe this will somehow bring us closer, maybe it won’t. I don’t know. But I do know how hard this is for you…to sit here and pretend that you’re ok with it. I know you aren’t. I’m not ok about leaving you, either. But if this is meant to be…it will be. I believe that. I need you to believe that, too.’ Nathan closed his eyes. His hands came up and grabbed Kelsey’s wrists. He pressed his lips. However, not one of them has captured my attention or was worthy of giving them the key to my heart, until I met you. You are the most beautiful person I have ever met and without realizing it, I have slipped you the key. So therefore, you have a choice to make. Either you can return the key to me, or you can hold on to it. If you are willing to keep it safe for me, for a very long time, then we should seal the deal with a kiss." She had gentle tears in her eyes, and looking into them, I.