It hurts to be member of a higher order group of living organisms. Insects have it so easy. I don't think that sex has to be learned for them. Like wi...h fish, it comes naturally. No pun intended there.So, learning the how of sex is a life changing event for each of us. That's why I think why we feel our first time is so important. Like I said, for me, that happened with Kathy. Four decades, plus a myriad of additional years have not dimmed my memory of that first time or the feelings that went. It was cold.It was blustery.And I did not give a damn.Because I was walking with Krissy."No practice tonight?" I asked her."Nope. She said that with it being technically Halloween and all, we'd probably all be thinking about treats and partying." Smart coach. So are you?" Am I what?" Going out trick or treating, or out to some party?"Krissy laughed.It was a musical sounding laugh that made me smile."No," she said. "I did that last weekend. I'm going to do school work until about six pm, then. She looked up at me, and all of a sudden she was all business: Looking around inside the cabana/shed, her eyes stopped for a few seconds, and she stared intently at my workbench. Then she looked up at me again, and said, “Meet me in here at 2AM. Sharp. Do you have any candles?”“Yes we have a bunch of them we keep out here for when we lose power in storms”, I replied.“Good. I don’t want to turn on any lights, but I would like to be able to see what you are doing to me,” she stated. What if he sees me. What if he sees a young man half my age rubbing me with lotion. I can explain to him. There is nothing wrong with this. I mean I can't reach my back. Oh shut up already" She tells herself."Why don't you turn over Debbie. Pass me the lotion first." Paul asks.Paul is standing over Debbie. She can't help look at his bathing suit and wonder what his cock looks like. "I wonder if it's long. Or maybe fat. Maybe long and fat." Debbie fantasized to herself. Paul is starring at.