"In the middle of the afternoon, Penny walked in on us without knocking and caught Ben applying yet more salve to my bottom. We knew it was unnecessar... to put it on as frequently but he liked doing it, and I enjoyed the soothing sensation of his hands rubbing my tender buttocks and the fact that his fingers strayed to other areas. The pain had eased considerably but it was still there and I couldn't sit comfortably even on the soft mattress.Penny's face dropped when she saw Ben's hands in. Jerry was OK and fun but that was about it and ‘OK’ wasn’t something to build ‘forever’ or even a long term rela­tionship upon. The summer holiday had been super though, yes fun, and she had really enjoyed that. Sally thought back to the week in the sun. Jerry hadn’t told her where they were going, she’d thought it would be a hotel in Spain or Portugal, which would have been good, but he’d surprised her with a Greek is­land. It had been a long drive from the airport, on the wrong side of the. Sooner or later it’s going to happen. It’s not just the unusual set-up that might attract attention. It’s the physical changes, especially the loss of body hair and the raised heels. How could we ever explain that if doctors became aware of it? And I can’t help capturing new girls, and nor frankly do I want to. Some day we’re going to have more trouble unless we can think of a way of preventing it.’ The girls looked concerned. ‘What a terrible idea, having to give up all this,’ shuddered Fran.. Looking back as an adult minus my childhood naivety I nowcomprehend all the innuendos and subtle mickey taking I received from mypeers and adults alike, not to mention the unexplainable hostility fromcertain quarters.Within that new found hindsight which comes with maturity of adulthood Ihad to dispense with the delusion that my mother had no idea of myinclinations. In my own defence I only knew her in the first six years ofmy life before she was cruelly snatched away from me by a drunk.