That was almost as sad for him as it had been for her. Dying might solve her problem, but it wasn't what daddy wanted. She still loved daddy, despite ..... No, death was for later, not for now. She still had the problem of what to do after her CAP test to solve. She could distract herself a little by thinking about that.She scored 4.9. Below average. That got to her more than she'd expected. She thought she'd score in the low fives, just above average. She didn't, she was below average. That. Frisky, with the boys, but this? Yet she seemed well adjusted and normal. She'd only been on this job a year or so! I started thinking of names, Gus and Jim. Girls too? The hot pink Flossie? With Cleo I didn't know anymore. Was I following her? The things I've been doing with Eddie were way out in left field for me. I was changing, that was clear to me. I'm not feeling guilty about what I'm doing. I'm just concerned where it will stop. If it will stop. Could that be what Billy meant? I'm coming. Oh I don’t know! I just don’t have that much experience in this stuff.??That’s ok. I’ll take it slow for now. But you will have to submit to my discipline while I am training you.??Discipline? What do you mean???Well, you said spanking. That is one of the things I will do when you displease me. Other things may be more psychological, perhaps humiliating. Later, as I get to know your tolerance for pain, I will use a flogger and things like that.??Flogger? I don’t know.??Don’t worry, I won’t. They were both laughing and clapping their hands when I poked that girl with my shoe heels. She bolted through the gate in a run, then headed down the wagon road as fast as she could go. I poked her with my heels every time she started to slow down. I know I must have ridden her four miles or more before I pulled her around and headed back with her. By the time we made it back, I had already stopped her twice to get off and walk around her. Then I’d get back on her again and make her run some.