We went into the bedroom and stripped for bed. Watching my two girls get naked was something to be savored. They were so different from each other and...yet both of them had bodies and looks that would make other women weep with envy and men go mad with desire.Perhaps Jen was feeling some of the same awkwardness I was feeling because after getting naked she slipped into her shorty nightgown before crawling into bed. Vicky on the other hand climbed into bed naked as the day she was born. Me, well. She was a really great mom and gave me a lot of space, but at that time, with Tollie’s friend Lark visiting—that was her name I found out later--I really liked that name—I didn’t want to talk to her about what was going on with me and Tollie ‘cause really nothing was going on except in my head. In my room, I tried to read, but all I saw were words and nothing registered. I called Janine and she was at the mall, telling me what a cool tank top she bought on sale, and I should have gone shopping. My feral awareness of her usually remaining around level two. Eventually she asked me to dinner at her place on a Friday night. I was excited about this, because I was through the grieving period for my ex-girlfriend and becoming interested in ending my self-imposed celibacy. And because I was ready to trust Claire.It was a strange evening. One where I, for reasons of my own, accepted the role of prey although never rising above a level of four in feral awareness. She, for reasons I won't. I was a physical sweaty wreck from those three. I know I will not want to get up in the morning. We would be going down to the Hall of Justice to see all the Eastsider's arraigned in court along with Mr. Gacy Martene Sr. also. I intended to follow these men every step of the way through the Court system. Just as I was following the Wallace, and LaDrania legal issues.(Monday, Morning.)Everyone involved pleaded not guilty. So before 3rd hour was over with I was back at school and so looking.