Gradually I lost interest in the other, more attainable girls around me. Well, perhaps not all, but even as I bedded them, I knew it was Amanda’s fa...e and body I really wanted to see on the sheet beneath me.In the end, it took three months of almost complete celibacy on my part, and all the persuasive charms I could muster before she would even agree to go to the movies with me. It took all my self-control not to push my luck in the darkness, but I did, and was rewarded with a second date. So, I told you and Sarah that I had cut them out of ourlife, I had also told them that Sarah didn't want to talk to themeither, and would only relay messages through me... I was so angry atthem, I wanted them to feel the pain that Sarah was feeling. I thoughtthat dealing with that they might start to listen and realize that Brianhad never truly been their son...To my surprise, it started actually working though, while they werestill upset and not happy with the idea, they had agreed to meet. That’s all I’m asking you to do.” She tried to look shocked: “Are you serious?” “Of course I am. I can’t get the guys to talk about their sales problems now. All they want to do is to keep asking each other if they’ve seen the way you bounce around at every step. It’s like a bunch of Alaskan trappers sitting around swapping yarns about Big Foot. Well, I’m not interested in legends, I want to see the real proof on a video tape so there’s nothing more to argue about. And when the guys know what. " I know that, Hani. There's not a mean bone in your body. You brought back some very nice memories too; you didn't mean any harm."I scooted closer and held her hand. "What was I like as a kid?" Oh," she sniffed, "intensely curious and always busy with something; happy, usually, unless you were hungry or tired. Perfectly normal in every way." Are you okay with..." All of a sudden I couldn't say the words, 'me being gay'. I waved my hand in the air, unable to open my mouth.She nodded solemnly..