"Left on the bed, Shime reached up and stroked her own hair. It was straight and silky like her mother's. She could remember her mother had brushed he... hair. When they weren't out on missions, they acted like a normal family. Sometimes she could remember her parents arguing, but it was never over anything really important. It had mostly been about her mother insisting she have the chance to chose whether she wanted to be Ha'tinre, whereas her father was being pressured by his brother to start. I do know that after years of effort, the results are as I had hoped. Could I have done things differently? Perhaps. And maybe I would also somehow have emerged intact on the other side of the nightmare that I faced – different from today, but still whole. No one can ever really know ‘the road not taken’. I do know how much I miss her. There is not a day which goes by without me thinking of her some time. My favorite time is early morning, when I lie in bed, half awake (and half asleep). I like. That's when I noticed.All winter, ever since meeting Alice in November and having my chastitystrictly enforced, I had studiously avoided being in the company ofbeautiful women for fear I might implode. Especially, I had avoidedanywhere where I might meet beautiful, scantily-dressed women.Yet surrounding me in that lounge were twenty of the most gorgeous womenyou could ever wish to set eyes on, all dressed in clubbing geardesigned to expose every inch of flesh to maximum advantage. They had. I said it’s like that only. After that she told all boys are same, shameless selfish sex oriented. I said yes what’s wrong in that. She asked me like “You are chatting with me only to have sex with me????” I was thinking what to reply for about ten minutes. I thought anyhow if I say no also she will not have sex, I don’t want lifetime relationship with her so will say ah yes. And I replied her saying Yes. My heartbeat was increased so much that it may come out anytime waiting for her reply. But.