He has been hurting me, and has been for a long time now.’ Gail looked at her as the tears started down her face, and she whispered, ‘I know, I’...e seen him with you. He has done the same to me. Mum had to put me on the pill, too.’ I realized that this was worse than we had at first thought. I wondered what we were going to find out when we interviewed Paula? It looked as if the worst had happened, but from what the girls had said so far, it was beginning to appear that their mother was, maybe,. One happy for her. One sad for me. It was the only thing I could think to send. Her response was quick in coming back.‘Oh I will x’That was a kick in the balls! Fuck! Smug bitch! She’s loving this! I bit my lip. Too hard. I was frustrated. I was horny. I wanted to do the same thing to her, but couldn’t. I didn’t have the balls – or the gumption!I flicked back over the texts and the pictures. They were arousing, but not now to the same extent. Not now that those moments were long. .. tried for three years in fact, but so far no luck. Johnnie, who wanted a baby as much as I, wasn't concerned with my inability to conceive. 'Sooner or later it'll work honey, ' he'd say but increasingly I'd become less convinced.I'd gone to my doctor and he'd said I was perfectly healthy... 'no problem at all young lady, ' he'd said smiling, but month after month I remained barren. And Johnnie wasn't in any hurry to get tested. Doubts slowly entered my mind. Doubts that were nurtured by. Whats up? Oh, you know… I just got off work, Sam told me to bring you home. All I could do was stare, in complete disbelief, disbelief that slowly turned to annoyance. He told you to bring me home? I have a ride already, thats how I got here. How did you even know where I was? You know Sam. He likes to keep eyes everywhere when he can. Despite the anger taking over the cold knot in my stomach, I did what I could to stay calm. Youre serious? Whos Sam? Matt asked, looking between the two of us..