I do pretty well in that department." Maybe you do, but not your mother. Is she still working around the clock? I told her she would find fulfillment ...n her love life by the end of the year, and it hasn't happened yet. She's anxious about that and she obviously feels very lonely." You're right," I replied in agreement. "She works non-stop and she's often too busy to date. And if she does date, her standards are ridiculously high. I can't say I blame her since she's a really beautiful and smart. “Hi, Karen! Going to keep me company?”“Okay!” Gillian, though, seemed a little uncomfortable.Suki touched her on the forearm. “I’m going to sit with Liina and little Peter. You aren’t interrupting.”Gillian’s face cleared. “Go on, then Karen. Thanks, Suki.”So there I am, sitting next to Karen, with Gillian on the outside at the end of the pew. A familiar presence on the other side of me ... but when I looked, there’s no-one there.Looking around more than usual, I could see Liina’s blonde head. " I turned around and strutted a few feet. "Yes, that's the spot," I heard Lexi moan. With my eyebrows raised again, I looked at the ground. "Could they be having sex?" I wondered. "Oh, Monica, you are a goddess among women on this planet." My head tilted back and I brought my palms to my forehead. "Well, Monica could be giving Lexi a massage for all I know," I thought. The creaking never faded and my fists clenched up. "They are both adults, but wouldn't Lexi tell me if she was with someone?. .." Like the ones Laura was talkingabout a few days ago, I think to myself. I return to my mirror and takeanother long look at myself, at the girl I am. My breasts are firm, mywaist narrow, my limbs slender and my hips wide. My hair- whilst short-is thick and luxurious and my skin is baby smooth....And every part of it feels like a living hell. And yet, testosteronewould make it all go away. Muscles would grow and hair would sprout frommy face and all over my body. My voice would deepen, my.