We ... all need a clean break.” She paused, her eyes in turn searching mine, looking for ... something, almost afraid of what she might find. “I a... leaving the surgery here and have taken up a position in Leicester.”I gave her a questioning look. “And... ?”“We – that’s you, me and Hilary – are moving in two weeks.”My stomach flipped – another break with my past. This had been my childhood home until I finally broke free at age seventeen. My parents had continued to live here even after they. We sat down and continued our conversation he say " what funny about this shit is that you don't even act gay, i would have never guessed you were a fag, oops i meant gay" I laughed and said "and no body would ever suspect jay as being gay, you just never know your best friend or cousin could be gay, but because of how gay men are treated they are afraid to say so" he said "and that nigga Jay call you fags and bitch niggas and he feel like he not gay because he's doing the fucking" i said "yep. I shared that interest with her too. Would letting her have sex with another man damage us? I wasn’t sure. But that was only from my side of the fence. I didn’t know how it might affect her. For that matter, I wasn’t so sure that having a woman’s hands on me while she watched and participated wouldn’t bother her in a less than beneficial way either.So for a while I read profiles and looked at racy photos of couples who were looking to ‘swing’. With my lack of abilities, however, I didn’t feel. I think about you on my way home and even when you're talking to me, I think of you. I'm never not thinking of you. I also can't make eye contact with you because you're so beautiful."I knew he was serious. He would never joke about something like this. But I wanted to know about something else. "Oh my goodness. I don't know what to say." I know it's a lot. Especially coming from your Step Dad. We've been in each other's lives for so long now. I've always loved you as a daughter but now I see.