. Back to what? I realized that I was just a breathless kid on the street, with no firm goals and little with which to attain them.On my way to Martha...s a shadow floated down the street. I looked up; heavy overcast was moving over the city. Sunshine disappeared from the block as I entered Martha's building.On my way upstairs I heard Ronnie's door open as I passed.She called quietly behind me, "Hey, you." I stopped and turned. She stood in her apartment doorway, eyes narrowed and lips pursed,. “Kiss my foot and apologise,” she barked and, when I protested, she kicked me and asked if I wanted another twenty strokes before she kicked me out and told me to go on the Government Sponsor scheme. That really scared me, so I gave in. After a while she seemed to relax. “It’s so much better when you do as you are told,” she said. “Now why don’t you make a nice cup of tea?”Thursday October 14thLucy stopped by my desk in the office this afternoon. I find her turning up disrupting. She wanted. I had only ever seen such a graceful creature once before in my life. What really settled all my suspicions was that mischievous half smile she gave me when she saw us sitting on the hillside. The truth of the matter hit me full force, the girl I had been so struck with for the past few hours was the baron’s daughter! When the couple finally reached us it was painfully obvious the baron and baroness had widely differing opinions about their daughter associating with a peasant boy. The baroness. And his parents stay in a different city. I told him that’s fine he need not worry. He need not marry me but can have me as his girlfriend forever. I told him I am his proud mistress or rakhel.The next day in office he was worried and apologized to me. He asked me to go away. I was angry and told him how can he leave me after having sex. And also I told him I was ready to accept even though he was married. Then he changed his mind and had sex again in the office. I wore a mini skirt that day..