None of those things drove mebefore. It was money, sure, and need to do things right. To keepthings clean and tidy. Emotions are messy. I saw myse...f as more of anengineer - measured, precise, correct. The very opposite of Vanessa -emotional, impulsive, caring.Hormones? Could that be it? Chemistry is the scientific explanation.But somehow my change seemed more spiritual than chemical. It had beensudden, like an epiphany, sparked by those blue eyes."Tonight?" he said. Then he detected. So now i'm piss at him, He didn't answer his cell either. So I got stuck in traffic by a train, So sitting there piss , I notice I was in front of a big warehouse that had semi park in front of it. I notice one had a young black guy walking around his truck, I smiled , maybe I should show him a good time lol. Now just so you know my bf is very prejudice . Smile that would piss him off lol. But he would never know, The train finish and I pulled away A dog ran out in front of me and I hit my. !!"Eager eyes flashing, Bella twirled away along the corridor, the big double doors slamming behind her, the lock clicked, bright girl, she was taking no chances.Picking up the phone I dialled the first number, it was going to be a long day, a lot to arrange and organise, Dee was right, I was angry, but not at her, at the text I had received on my way to the gallery. A deep breath, voice level, I spoke into the phone, absorbed in my work, whilst down the corridor the big thick doors guarded the. Stella looked at me, with the same question on her face. I shook my head, in response to her silent question. “Dear, please, that is the only thing I do not want to talk about." “Maybe, one day I will tell you, without you even, asking me. Please forgive me. Do not ask me that question tonight," Mom requested. “Ask me any other question and I will answer.” Dad asked mom, “Did you go out dating, over the years?” “I believe you want to know the number of people,I went out dating and slept.