I bought my ticket for the show and drank beer at the bar while I waited for them to let us go upstairs to watch the show. While waiting, a very attra...tive man came up to me and engaged me in conversation. It wasn't long before I was interested in exploring his body, but by that time it was time for the show.The show was fairly typical of these types of shows, and extremely fun. Most of the people were beautiful and I fantasized about having sex with them. After the show, my boy and I went to. Jillian didn’t interest me anymore. I decided to walk the six blocks to my apartment. I was tired, but I lay in bed for hours thinking about Chastity, listening to the voices in my head arguing over calling her. Part of me wanted her back; the other was afraid to expose my wounded heart to another break. My thoughts swung like a pendulum from one side of the argument to the other. An old question came back. “Where did the love go?” It had troubled me constantly for months after Chastity left.. After more talk, I discovered that he was staying in the same hotel as Billy and I, but just one floor up.Jimmy asks if I required more drink, yes, I said I will have a coffee because I've had enough beer for now. He went to the bar while I pondered the memories of that night in Jimmy's car, and the way he 'filled me up' with that cock of his. I also remembered that I looked out for him for some time after, hoping to get another good fucking but I never found him. I stopped searching when Billy. He could feel their eyes appraising him but that wasn’t going to happen. The plan they worked out was clear: the women would be used but he would remain outside it all to maintain control and to assert the business connection. “This isn’t knew for you guys, what does that mean for you two in the group?”They understood the question and smiled. “You’re wondering if we’ve been sexualized in the group and in the process marginalized.” It was a gamble but he hoped that if it was true his expressed.