” “Mysterious?” she asked, raising her eyebrows. “You’re wrong. I’m not mysterious.” “Yes, you are. You have a secret self that no one...knows but you.” “I do?” she asked, lifting her mug to her lips, her eyes looking over the rim at me. When she put her mug down, I could tell she was thinking about what I said about her secret self. She seemed concerned at first, but then smiled, her eyes narrowing, looking into mine, indicating I had touched something in her and aroused her curiosity. “Tell. It fills my nostrils and makes my heart beat even faster. My hands go to her waist, then slowly glide up her sides until my fingers are just under her ample breasts. They gently caress the bottom of her breasts as I hear her gasp. I cup them in my hands, feeling the weight and firmness.I slowly move my hands down along her hips and across the front of her thighs, then up to her firm belly. I pull her tight to me as I gently kiss her neck, my hot breath caressing her. Her breasts are heaving. “Allison, I’m too old for you. It would be wrong for me to take advantage of you.” “That’s so stupid.” Allison put her coffee mug down and stiffened, changing the atmosphere in the room. “No it’s not. It would be a huge mistake. It was foolish of you to come all the way here with your sexual fantasy. There’s no way I would let that happen.” Jason was trying to ignore her blue eyes, how her breasts strained her shirt, how her brushing his thigh awakened memories he was trying to ignore.. And in future, if you’re going to run at full throttle, make sure that you have some fuel in the tank first.”“So, are you going to calm down a little now?”My dad broke the silence we’d shared since he’d collected me from school. I looked at him.“I get it,” he continued. “You miss her. She’d become a big part of your life. But you can’t kill yourself over her.”I looked over at him. He glanced at me.“In the pool I mean. Poor choice of words, sorry,” he said.I didn’t answer. I turned and looked.