The father said that they were here for the weekend before heading back to jobs and colleges. I nodded and smiled.Before they returned, I had gone ins...de and got in bed. I was still tired. I also realized that I missed being with Beth. I thought about that issue as I drifted off to sleep.I woke at my usual hour rested. I started coffee while I stretched. I pulled on shorts, sandals, and a tee shirt going outside to sit and drink my coffee.One of the girls from the site next to me came over and. Behind her,on her walls, I could see posters of boy bands. But it was her face thatmesmerized me. Alyssa had twinkling, mischievous green eyes under wrylyarched eyebrows and a cute little upturned nose. Her skin glowed withgood health. Her mouth shined with glistening lipgloss. And then itdawned on me that she could see me too. Standing in the little pantiesand bra with my cheeks rapidly turning crimson with embarrassment andshame. But she just clapped her hands in glee and told me how cute. "Well, yeah, it pays the bills," he said. "I mean, If a better job came along, I would take it. It's just that I've had this job since I dropped out of high school." Oh," I say with a bit more sadness in my voice. "She must be really special and love you. Most women I know would be worried about how much their husband makes. Donna's a great girl to be willing to marry you now instead of making you get a better job." Yeah, she's pretty special," he said, a tad bit worried."I mean, I can imagine. It was anything but rational, something that time and professional help had not been able to irradiate, the source of the fear still unknown yet haunting. Just as the accompanying thundered finally reached her she realized an unnatural sense of foreboding. The sense of well being created by the long soak was momentarily lost as she quickly moved to turn off the tub’s jets. She scolded herself for being a big baby, maybe it was because she was home alone. The ensuing quiet enveloped her as she.