"Tell me," said Mitch. "Whatever it is, I'll try to help you as much as I can." He was too excited, and he pushed, when he should have sat silent. "Is...this about the gunshot?"Kris blinked. His face went calm. Mention of the gunshot didn't cause him any discomfort at all. He stood."No," he said. "Never mind. You checked, and I didn't get arrested for anything in my past. That's really all I need to know."Mitch almost groaned with the frustration he was feeling, but kept his voice neutral."I know. Although there had only been thin cloth hiding him from view, he still seemed bigger than his boxers had let on. I bit my lip, slightly afraid of the pain that was to come. My mind raced and my breathing was rapid and uneven. Beau looked at my face and I saw the concern in my eyes. He must have noticed my reaction."Chère…If you're not ready…" he began. I cut him off with a gentle kiss."No, I'm ready…just nervous is all…I…I've never…." My face burned and I turned my head, embarrassed at my. You don’t even know how bad I want you, I fantasize about you all the time, like when I’m driving to work or while I’m watching love movies with my gfs. I try to remember every detail and relive those moments we had together in my head. I always imagine myself being with you all over again and how good it felt being in your arms. I loved the way you made me feel, i gave myself to you physically and emotionally, and you were soo gentle and patient with me. I felt cherished in your arms and loved. We have fallen into a rut, which neither of us has really attempted to pull us out of. Now, I have suggested that we change up our sex life by introducing role playing or adult toys, but, for reasons known only to her, she has been reluctant to go in these directions. I think part of the problem lies in the fact that with middle age comes expanding middle girth. Both of us have been putting on the pounds, Karen more so than me, and I think this is affecting her psyche. She just doesn’t see.