Was that really what I wanted? I didn't know.There was some pounding on the bathroom door and Mary asked if I was going to be in the shower all mornin.... Well, not actually asked. More like yelled.Mom had an early shift today so I went into the kitchen and had some cereal and OJ for breakfast. Mary came in as I was halfway through my Wheaties."Hi, Lover Boy. Out late on a school night. Sounds like you found an easy senior." Not quite. Jill's a freshman." A FRESHMAN? Oh my God. My big brother's. She moved off to the second door and opened it to reveal a small gym with different types of work out equipments. She saw a treadmill, a bow flex, a conversion bench for free weights, a weight set next to it for the bench, and a couple of other things she didn’t recognize (at least she knew how Amanda stayed in shape. She guessed with a small town like this a gym in your place is probably required to stay fit.). She closed the door to the second room and moved off to the third door. She opened. As it was the start of summer and as we just reached the hotel, even though the ac the on she was sweating a bit and wanted to change to some more comfortable and lose clothes. As Deepika brought only tight body fit type tops to Hyd she wanted to wear my cream t-shirt. I have her my cream t-shirt but on one condition, Deepika should wear just the t-shirt and nothing else, not even panty. She happily agreed and wore my t-shirt. I got freshen up too and seeing her in my shirt which was lose to. I opened my desk drawer and took out my Swiss army knife. I ran my finger along the edge of the blade to satisfy myself with its sharpness. I undressed and threw my clothes in the corner, taking a seat on my desk chair. Here I sat naked with a knife in my hand.In my estranged mind, I could only think that I could rid myself of one pain by creating another pain to replace it. The sun shone brightly through my window on my darkest day, bouncing off the silver coating of the knife’s blade. Holding.