His look had turned from sorry forhimself to venom. 'You faggot' he spat at me. 'Because of you Iam wearing a nappy and plastic pants and have had to ...ear a dressthis afternoon'. I could not think of anything to say. I tried tomove to get more comfortable. 'Keep still' he said aggressively.'It's your fault that we are in here so keep still and do as youare told'. I looked up at him suddenly wary of him. It was goingto be a long night. I was hot and sweaty. Martin was heavy andhis weight lay. All people tried to do was get me to pose for oil painting and photography classes... but I was too shy in those days. " "Now thinks she controls the world. " Shekhar said with a touch of sarcasm. Anita gave him a dirty look. "What I mean is that I was just a nineteen year old girl and I thought people were trying to take advantage of me. " She said. "How about now, Anita. " Shekhar said, "What if they asked you now?" "I think I would look at it differently. I'm older now. " "Yeah, thirty.. " I've been thinking about that. We haven't talked about it, but I'll look into it. I'm still free if I don't sign a contract."He said, "Even if you grow tired of me, it is still a good place to live. Lots of things to do."She took his face in her hands, "Don't even think like that." While you were on the computer, Jessica called. She's spending the night on Monday and Tuesday. I guess she wants to wish me well before they send me up the river. She's more than casually interested in my. Pulling the covers over her body, she closed her eyes. Drifted from the little apartment and all her real world problems. The sound of his breathing, his voice on the other line anchored her soul.“Why me? You’re young, beautiful, smart. You could have anyone you wanted. Out of everyone that notices you every day, you noticed me.”Her lips moved, but failed to make words. Licking them, she took a deep breath. “Maybe we shouldn’t question how it happened. Just be content that it did.”“Do.