I winked and told her, “Then you must invite me to your place for lunch.” She was confused and said, “Why lunch? I thought you would want to com... over for dinner.” I just smiled and said, “No, lunch will be fine.” She said, “Okay Saturday lunch it is then!” I said fine. We started bantering after this. However, I could see she was nervous and excited at the same time.Cut to Saturday afternoon, I rang her doorbell, exactly at 12 noon. She didn’t open the door straightaway. I thought she had. She told no and don’t think like that and I requested again and again holding her hands.I knew she was afraid I will do something by force but when again and again I pleaded I felt she is getting comfortable with me as I am not making any advances. I suddenly knelt down and caught her feet an d begged to allow once. She told if my mom knows this she will have to suicide as everyone will blame she has seduced me. I gave assurance that it will be only our secret and no one will know. I confessed. All I had to do was desire it and my dreams would change reality. Theywould change him; remake him in the image of my dearest fantasy.And he would like it; surely he would. He'd welcome it. Why wouldn't he?He'd be young again. Free again. He'd be the perfect match for me.I sat on the seat at the desk, head once again in my hands, pressing hardon my temples, pushing into my eyes, then got up, paced to the door,paced back, sat again, then stood. The darkness had withdrawn to the highcorners, back. If they seemed rush she would urge them to slow down. She watched and she waited seeing how long they last before they popped. Any one that popped within the first five minutes she immediately disconnected. She didn’t need any jumpin jack flashes. The top 6 guys who lasted the longest, she continued the conversation. She tried to get a good feel of them. Surprisingly all six guys seemed like decent guys who just wanted some ass. So we concluded, “look, I don’t wish to waste time. Let’s.