It was kind of awkward to turn around with Daddy still holding my shoulders, but I managed a sort of frog-walk in a half circle and when I was complet...ly facing him I looked up to see his face; he had a smile I’d never seen before and it was kind of creepy, not the smile I had seen back in better days when Mommy was still around and Daddy was happy, more of a smile that said he had made a decision and that he was pleased to no longer have to think about it. That smile replaced my fright with. I had very mixed feelings, on one hand I was shocked, hurt embarrassed and frightened and on the other a new sensation, I was turned on by all of this, though I did not know how to quantify my feelings until much later in life. “Ah, awake now are we?” he asked a little kindly. I nodded, and found that even that hurt. He grabbed hold of my willie and balls roughly and hissed “you should not have woken up half way through, If you ever tell anyone what I was doing I will make sure that every. "Andyour autograph's no good anyway. The Judge made sure no one everheard of you before. What you did in that Buffalo game and allthose others never happened." What are you talking about?" I argued. "I'm in the NFL recordbooks. Millions of people know my name. You can't erase thingslike that on a whim." The officer just smiled down at me."You'll find out who's right and who's wrong. There's yoursister so be good." He gave me a slight push toward a teenagegirl I'd never seen. But now she was completely alone in the lair of bizarre alien creatures. She hid in some hole and cried for some time just from the sheer horror of the realization of the situation. She was only 19, she had so much plans for her life. But also her squad mates did, and not all those worlds are destroyed, never to be lived through. Fraility of life and closeness of death hit her like a truck, her childish attitude and fantasies were melting away and she was opening her eyes to the real world. The.