I finally had someone to tell my secretto. I felt better for a little while being able to talk to someone, butit didn't last long. The shrink wanted m... to tell my parents, so if Iwanted to explore my feminine side more I could. I knew I couldn't tellthem, especially my Dad, so I started acting like I was better. I quitseeing the shrink a year later, because my parents thought I was curedof my depression. Well, to move along, I was fifteen when my brother died in a carwreck resulting from his. We watched as it got closer - it was one of those military twin rotor choppers that sort of looked like two palm trees attached to a dumpster. It landed close enough to us that it stirred up the snow and made the cold even worse. By now I couldn't keep my teeth from chattering and regretted giving Erv my jacket.A couple guys in suits jumped out and headed toward the sheriff. Stern Vern saw them and lit out like he was being chased like a swarm of bees. I watched as they had an animated. In the end, the tea was gone so I climbed out of bed, put my dressing gown over my arm, walked round to his side of the bed and kissed him.It felt so wonderful to be kissing him, I felt so grown up. I slumped down into his arms and I kissed him long and lovingly on the lips.When we broke the kiss, I don’t know who was blushing the most, he asked me what that was for and I just told him that I had never felt so wonderful, loved and in love in my whole life and it was all because of him and. At times when I would give Mum a hug her eyes would immediately moisten and she would break us apart. The only time we spoke was to do with the packing. Personal stuff went into four suitcases, furniture and bulky stuff went into boxes that would follow later.Night fell and accommodation was required, so we pulled up at a motel off the highway.A room was available but only with a double bed. Nothing was said but mother and I both looked nervous as we entered the room. "Let's shower and then.