But what I like more than all of that was that he was fun, he always had a cheeky mischievous glint in his eyes, and a cocky little smile dancing on h...s lips as he said something that sounded like an insult, but you could see he was joking, he could get away with saying anything with that look. When I got home I said hi to two of my house mates who were sitting in one of the rooms off the entrance hall with the door open watching family guy. Good practice? Alice asked Yeah but you didnt miss. At times I've wondered if there was something wrong with me. That was part of what came up in therapy. The therapist ended up hitting on me. Then, I found out later, he'd not kept my confidence. I sicced the lawyers on everybody.I ramble. I'm sorry.The point is I am frustratingly sexual and really do feel it is impossible to act upon. I know some of my peers do not seem shy about acting on their desires, but if you notice, very few can transcend the stigma that attaches. Not if their artistic. I have your face so deeply imprinted on mymind that I can draw your features right from my memory.I remained there, watching the painting as it dried. I missed you somuch that my eyes started getting wet. Then I put the picture in a boxthat was already full with your portraits, took my raincoat and rushedout of the home. I walked around for awhile, watching shops' windows,and the people rushing along the streets, trying to avoid the rain.I entered a lingerie store and looked for the sexiest. She released a series of quick, rapid exhalations as she foughtto absorb the pain. Then, she felt the other angled hemostat crawling up herleg towards her sex, making its way towards her opening, and again the painemanated from below as the doctor pinched her skin between the angled clawsand locked the handles of the device. Another stifled scream escaped from herthroat as she fought to control herself, trying to resist the urge to cry outagainst her tormentor. Tears welled up in her eyes as.