.i need to see what it is''one said and he walked forward opening the backyard fence , all following behind , listening to the sound , attracted by it...ll 5 in pijamas walking in the wood toward the sound getting louder and loudermy body felt pull toward the music all of us walking in the darka big fire camp in sight silhouette dancing in circles chanting we all walked to it , smell of wood fire filling my nose hypnotize by the scenethe fire big and dancing with flames of colorthe tall thin. “Remember what I said if you see numbnuts. God, what a fucking loser.”I could not stop thinking about what I had done with John last night. All through my morning shower, I smiled and actually giggled. My god, I masturbated with him holding me. I let my son masturbate in my bed while I lay next to him and kissed him. All because the minuteman failed to meet my expectations on every level and left me feeling sexually used and unfulfilled.What I did with John was not even close to half of what I. I was nervous about the public as I slipped my heels on. I could walk the walk in women’s shoes but I had some strong features for a woman. I was nervous but I had a few cocktails before I headed out for a test run. I was going to grab a bite to eat and see if I could do it. I had only gone from my car to the adult video store or a hotel room dressed as Stephanie. I was within walking distance from everything since I choose a luxurious hotel in down town San Antonio. I could even see the club. Well, he was waiting impatiently in the hall for the taxi to arrive as I came down stairs. I thought I would tease him a bit so I told him to kneel down and I positioned myself in front of him, facing away and told him to raise my skirt around my waste. As he did so I could feel his hot breath on my legs and a low groan as he discovered I wasn't wearing knickers, he pushed his face into my bottom and began to tongue me, urgently probing my rose bud just as the taxi hooted outside. I pushed him.