And with her went my last living link to the man I loved. With her went my heart. My soul I had already commended to another.The tears continued until...I lost all control and collapsed in Her arms. My long life had given me grief beyond measure. It was a hard road I had taken, it was not made easier by remembering what I had given up to travel it, the loss of everyone I held dear. Some had died at the hand of others, Claudius, Hurramu, and most of all P'sero. Others had died from The Wave--my. So i asked what was wrong. he said to me that he liked my ass and was the real reason he stopped for me. smiled and said thank you and placed my hand on his leg rubbing his leg. he asked me if i was gay and i responded no im bi. i asked him would you like me to jerk off your cock for you for driving me home. he smiled and said please if you could.i moved my hand up to his crotch and started rubbing. i slowly unzipped his pants and put my hand into his jeans. i felt the outline of his cock. It’s the same as major surgery, in a way: you don’t put major stress on the wound until it’s healed enough to take the stress without rupturing again.I did go back to work, and Lily and I did set about building a new normal. For years, other than work, she was my world. I didn’t date, and didn’t want to. Inevitably, I would have compared any woman to Rowan, and it would have been hard to find anyone who could have survived the comparison.Rowan was brilliant and creative, a painter whose gallery. Can't you wait a bit?"I took a deep breath trying to keep my cool. Jennifer was concentrated on her phone call more than she was on me. I paced the kitchen and grabbed a soda. I sipped on it waiting for Jennifer to get off the phone. I watched her shift her sexy little body on the couch looking as if she was getting more comfortable. I sat at the kitchen table and waited, and waited and waited. Suddenly I just snapped. Up until this day I don't know what came over me. Maybe I had reached my.