I was thinking that maybe you wanted to try. Do you remember the last time we were here?"Marvin replied, "That was a long time ago."Barbara said, "I s...ill remember. I could not say which room we were in or anything but I remember that we made love. We tried not to make any sound at all because the walls were thin. Trying to stay quiet made me laugh." We sure had some great times." Marvin replied wistfully.Barbara embraced her husband and fingered the buttons of his shirt. She got up and turned. We were travelling with three soldiers for our protection; not, this time, for guarding me. A cook and three servants, plus Avril, baby Johnson and myself, made up the band of lonely travellers. We carried enough for ourselves, but not enough for sharing with the few hungry people we passed, though we still did sometimes. I knew the land would rebound quite quickly, but it still made for a sorrowful journey. Avril was convinced, now, that there would be nothing left of her family; she. You lay with your eyes closed and I can't help watching you, you have a slight smile on your face and you are positively glowing. I can't help myself and lean over and kiss you, you start to reciprocate but I stop you, "Hey , just lay there, don't move, no matter what I do, just stay still".I continue to kiss your mouth, then your eye lids, I move onto your ears and neck. You let out a sigh as my hand brushes your breast and I slowly unbutton your dress fully so it falls open. My fingers work. Summer’s face swam before me, and guilt flushed through my whole body. Once again, I hadn’t been able to save anyone.The nurse adjusted the drip, and I fell asleep, thankful to stop the never-ending merry-go-round of my thoughts.When I awoke, the world had turned some more, and my wallet, passport and phone were stacked up neatly on the locker alongside my bed. I also had two visitors; a finely groomed older woman, who wouldn’t have looked out of place on the cover of Vogue, and a younger, more.