But then, I knew she did not like me, but I hoped I was in higher esteem than just a piece of meat in her way."Enjoying your thoughts?" she surprised ...e."Huh?" Your thoughts of me killing you... I know were not fond of each other, Amram, but I have no wish to kill you." Uhun. How did you know?" How do you think I knew?" You're a telepath... Hey, that's not fair!" It's fair. I have a fair chance to know if you're going to kill me if you get mad at me. Then I will know, and I can make a run for. You motion for me to come and sit on the bed. Obeying you, I carefully walk to the bed and sit. The sheets are cold to my skin but I dare say I will notice the sheets much longer. “Relax” you said softly as you pushed your hand between my soft legs. You smiled and kissed me laying me back on the bed. “Spread your legs my pet” you smirked as you lowered your face into my sopping cunt. “Somebody’s horny isn’t she?” you teased. Your head lowered between my legs as you spread my dark, red, moist. I parked and smiled hello at him thinking nothing of it. There is one stall and one urinal in the small bathroom and as I was standing there pissing he opened the door and walked in. Caught with my cock in the hand he looked and said "oh, you really are just pissing" and turned to leave. I said hold on what were you expecting. He said he knows there are gay guys who come in here wanting to be blown. I said do you provide those services, he said in his younger days but he didn't know what he was. I will never know whether there could have been a different way. I do know that after years of effort, the results are as I had hoped. Could I have done things differently? Perhaps. And maybe I would also somehow have emerged intact on the other side of the nightmare that I faced – different from today, but still whole. No one can ever really know ‘the road not taken’. I do know how much I miss her. There is not a day which goes by without me thinking of her some time. My favorite time is early.