I went up to the sun deck to see if I could get something to eat. My two friends came straight over to sit with me and I ordered a light lunch from th... steward. He brought it to me within 15mins and eating it and with the coffee I was almost myself again. Monday July 6th 2000hrsDear Journal: my aches and pains are still causing me problems and all I could think of was using some kind of embrocation but I would have to do this after dinner. Izzy told me to see the ships doctor who told me to. But the difference between you and I is thosefeelings are stronger in you. I had the urges like you did or do, but Ididn't do anything about them. I was content to let my urges be fantasy,but you...well, you felt strong enough to do something about them.Seriously, Sweetheart. Do you honestly think you could have grown up tobe a man like me and live a normal life when you felt as strongly as youdid? Your life would have been a wreck. I had urges. You had urges. I wasstrong enough to suppress. I had to turn the other way after Mrs. James soaping up my arm andfinished by rubbing the bar of soap under my fingernails. She repeatedthe process on the other side of my body.I asked, "Mrs. James when are you going to remove the hair from my body."Mrs. James replied, "I was wondering when you were going to ask that,it's good as you have the desire to be hairless."She continued, "We can do that right now."Mrs. Guthrie came into the bathroom and asked if she could help.Mrs. James said, "I was. He grabbed both of my arms at the elbows from behind and pulled them back as my breasted jiggled with the quick movement.The aggressive one ran his hands slowly down the front of my dress and paused to rub my swollen nipples saying, "You like attention, don't you?"The aggressive one reached into my dress and pulled out a full breast. He squeezed it upward and then pulled at my nipple, pinching it between his thumb and forefinger. His head dipped down. He kissed my breast then pulled it.