That means cautious, too. I could never have stood up during our concerts and said what I did if I let him control me. He’d have wanted me to be car...ful—to choose my words more carefully. Not to rock the boat too much. He’d have said I needed to protect our admission to the National School. He’d have been careful not to offend anyone that could make things harder for me. It’s understandable. It’s what we call learning from experience as we get older. Identifying situations that could be harmful. I also guessed wrong thethird time! It looks like I am not going to get much fondling!Annie decides to do something different. She leaves my blindfold off,unties my hand from behind me, lays me on the floor on my back, andreties my hands spread wide to some furniture. She lays down beside meand looks into my eyes. She runs her fingers lightly through my hairand smiles at me. "I need some real loving," she says to everyone."Do you think he is up to it? I mean, I wouldn't want him to come. I know a few people wondered if I was doing them both but as I lived in the dongas and they had never seen me coming from the girl’s room or even from the staff block that rumour had died a short death.One of the blokes who was also in the dongas, asked me why Gazza was in my room this morning. Rod was a shit-stirrer and a really sad man. I explained that Gazza had told me he was off to the Army, and he was worried about being on the small skinny side, so I taught him some moves to keep him. This same thing happened over and over again. I was just about resigned to thinking I had been overly optimistic about finding a female room mate when the phone rang again. I answered and there was a long pause before the person on the other end of the line said anything, I figure it was going to be the same as all the other responses to my ad. Finally a woman's voice said, "I was calling about the room for rent, is it still available?" I told her that it was. "You're the owner of the house and.