And something REAL has happened (is happening?) to me now. I occasionally get feelings of arousal, but nowhere as strong as I used to by just fantasiz...ng about things. They say ?the fantasy is better than the reality? and maybe that’s true, maybe that’s why I can’t get really, really aroused. It’s disappointing to me that I seem to have lost so much of my sex drive.I think if I can get to my clit or breasts I can work myself up, but I can’t move my arms and try as I might I can’t get my legs. She feigned a gooddeal of support in addition to her genuine surprise. She warned me that Imight be biting off more than I could chew, but I brushed it off.For the moment, I was happy and gainfully employed even if it was as awoman and a nanny, and I was going to be working for a reputed bitch. Icalled up Kathleen and told her the good news. She congratulated me, andI asked her to go clothes shopping with me that evening.She took me up on it, and I met up with her after dinner. We headed to. "Things just couldn't get any worse" she thought as she went down and groveled with the apartment manager to give her another few weeks to come up with the money, she came out victorious and swiped a newspaper from another tenant as she headed for her apartment. Once inside she opened the paper to the want ads to find a job. "APPLICANTS NEEDED FOR A NEW MEDICAL STUDY" was the heading that struck her first, it went on to say qualified persons would receive $800.00 for a two week in house medical. She went into our room and closed the door. Pissed. So I did everything I knew to rectify this situation. I went and got ice cream, flowers, made chocolate covered strawberries and my world famous grilled cheese. I had just finished lighting the candles and setting the table when she came out of the room. One look at the strawberries and she was able to speak to me again, still pissed though. I was putting our plates in the sink when she reached in the freezer, grabbed the ice cream and 2.