"I turned from her and started gathering up my jacket and books. She might not think I was serious about this, but I definitely was. She could keep me... or keep her secrets, but not both. I had kept nothing from her. Not that I had much in the way of secrets to keep, but still, I'd been completely honest and open with her.I almost ran into Karen when I opened the front door to leave. She must have heard us yelling earlier. Either that, or else the angry look on my face when I came out of her. Yet when she reached a hand to him, Doran gently stopped her."Much as I would love to, Amanda," said Doran in a softer and slightly husky voice. "You have managed to relax me more than I have been in a long time. This would only excite me again, though admittedly in a more pleasant way."Amanda smiled gently and nodded, withdrawing her hand. She certainly did not want to be the cause of him having another attack, especially not that way. Even though it left her pussy aching, she could take care. ’ Those were the words that reactivated my brain because they felt like a knife going through me. ‘I thought we were soul mates.’ ‘I did, too. But if we were, I would never be able to feel this way about Brad. I never meant to hurt you. For the longest time Brad and I were just friends, then….’ ‘You never really loved me, did you?’ ‘That’s not true! I did love you. I still do but…not nearly as much as Brad.’ That was the knife being twisted around. Maybe if she didn’t love me, it would have. I know I have hurt you at times. I am not going to say I didn’t mean to. When I said things to hurt you about me with Greg, I always knew I was being cruel, hurting you with my words. I want you to believe this much, I never planned to hurt you, but sometimes I just felt compelled.’ Dan just stared into his wife’s eyes, he had no response he could make. Laura took silence as right of continuance. ‘I am sure I will strike out at you in the future, almost certain, I have to, it is in me to.