I excuse myself, Lily stands, and I head to the bar to buy a drink. Thankfully she sits back down and doesn't follow me, I don't know how I'd react if...I was alone with her right now.More time has passed, uneventfully. Again the table is looking sparse, and there's only 3 left. As the guy with us goes to take a piss, it's just the two of us. We're sat opposite each other, and the silence at first isn't uncomfortable this time, it's... mesmerizing. I'm staring into her eyes, and she's staring. Friends told us funny but mildly disgusting tales of sperm-donors dashing from the bathroom with a few drops of semen in a cup, fumbling women with Turkey-basters, and the recipient keeping her legs in the air for hours, while hoping against hope.Despite everything stacked against it, by the summer of 1981 we had vehemently agreed that we both wanted a child, believing it might provide the last piece of several puzzles. But to find that last piece, we needed a man who we liked enough to provide. I didn't want him to see everything right away, he was already mesmerized by my legs, I sat back on my feet but slowly, very slowly he could see the panties for a moment, then I put my left hand on one leg and I I started to caress him very easily. I didn't lift my eyes from the papers and continued with my right hand to write or at least pretend to write, I winked to see how he reacted and he was a little sweaty on my forehead and mesmerized by my feet. He stared under my desk and, looking as. She had no time to examine any of that since the women hustled her to one of the corner buildings and led her to a room with a washtub. Her clothes were stripped off and thrown in a corner, too ruined to save. One woman inspected her budding adolescent body while the other drew a bath in a big tub. Were they going to drown her, she feared, not having been cleaned that way in her memory?Her hair was washed, untangled, and washed again, then she was shown how to scrub her body. That took a while.