Journal Entry: March 6, 2015I've reached a conflict within myself. I need to confront my wife. I am so confused and I need to better understand what s...e is thinking. My only choice is to have a straight forward conversation.Journal Entry: March 9, 2015I got home from work and I said to my wife, "We need to talk."She replied, "Sure honey what's up?" I led her into the bedroom and motioned for her to sit next to me on the bed.I felt anxious as I started the conversation, "I'm glad you are. She had orgasm'd thinking about what was going to happen at the party. She couldn’t wait for the black cock she was going to get. Jamal had her so addicted to black cock and she enjoyed it so much that in anticipation she could fantasize about it and make herself cum without being touched. My heart sank knowing that her mind had gone so deeply into the idea of fucking BBC’s that just thinking about them made her cum. How would she ever be satisfied again with my cock? She was spending more. Just then the bus hit a bump. Forget the dress. I had to grab the seat handles to avoid falling. The dress fell to the floor. Mike and Bob were wondering if I was shaved “down there”. And now greeted with a bald pussy they stopped wondering. I waited and looked to be sure there are no more bumps coming up then pulled my dress back up. Giving a little bow I returned to my seat to applause from Mike and Bob.When the bus arrived at SU I thanked the bus driver for the ride. “You are very welcome.. She pushed me hard until I was often very tired and had sorefeet, but I did not complain. I liked being told what to do, I likedbeing forced to dress as a girl, in fact I increasingly just enjoyeddressing as a girl without the domination.Throughout this period Helen kept me on a strict diet and made meexercise through dance regularly which also improved my deportment andelegance. My weight dropped to 135lbs and my waist shrank to 28." Forrelaxation I was made to read women's magazines, girly.