Paul didn’t come with Dad because it was Wednesday, and they worked different shifts. I could tell there was something wrong with Mom, but I could...’t tell what it was. It was like something had happened between them that I didn’t know about. They talked about his work, about hers. Little things. I ate a little bit in the kitchen, like I always did; it was just an understanding as old as time that I didn’t get to eat with them unless there was company there. I didn’t mind. I didn’t get. I could just imagine the look of shock on her face! I went to the bathroom and got a washcloth and a basin of warm water, along with some soap.When I returned a few minutes later, she asked me, seeming put out that I left her like that. “What took you so long?” “Well, I was going to clean you up so you wouldn’t be so hot and sticky; but since you seem annoyed, I will leave and come back later.” I then left the room, leaving the items I was carrying there in the room.I went into the living room. Thodi der baad farhaan mere paas aaya aur mere nange pairon ko sehlaane laga main kuch azeeb sa feel kar rahi thi tabhi vishal shalini ke boobs dabata hua dikha . Main ab poore mood main thi . Dheeraj coopcaap kinare baitha hua tha . Maine use boolaya aur use kiss kiya ab kya tha poore room ka mahol badal cuka tha . Vishal bhi mere paas aa gaya aur dheeraj aur farhaan se bola dekhate kya ho maza lo chod dalo aaz in randion ko maine vishal ko ek zor daar thappad mara aur room se bahar aa gai. Am I different? I knowthe sex part of my life is different, but am I different? Am I notnice? Am I not caring? Not fun to be around? Not sexy? Not cute? Notsmart? I'm at a total loss and I feel like I'm losing him. Maybe I'vealready lost him. That's the part that hurts so bad. I have this painin my chest that won't go away. I feel like my heart has broken.End Diary EntryDiary Entry: August 2008He told me he thinks I should move out. That things are not the sameanymore. I can't do.