I could see it in his eyes. He was enjoying his little game with me, and though I knew I deserved no better, I still was crying out deep inside for hi... to want me, to need me. I braced myself for what was to come."And, what you had to do is... ?" Sue, I love you. I always have. What you did... what happened, it cut me to the core... but even after that I still knew, deep down inside that I loved you. Cheryl was able to bring me to an understanding of what I had to do, and..."It must have been. "Sveta nods, listening carefully to Neena's account."In common with other recruits," she continues, in the rather stilted tone always expected of her when reporting in the military, "when she realises that she can no longer hide from the reality of her new circumstances she will be hit by a storm of emotions: anger, disbelief, horror, dismay, despair, fear, desperation, home-sickness and even psychological depression. As her trainer, I have to support her through this crisis until she accepts. His arm was flung over her shoulder and their hips bumped occasionally as she maneuvered them down the street. A taxi slowed and Paris contemplated shoving her friend into the back seat and sending him home, but one look at his blurry eyes and dopey grin and she knew that he’d be passed out within minutes and probably find himself dumped into the gutter shortly thereafter. With a resigned sigh she waved the driver on. A fresh gust of salt laden air lifted the damp hair from the back of her. I don’t think Josh would have affected me that way if Ed and I were still having frequent sex, but I found myself lusting after a twenty-year-old college boy, with a very big cock.By the time I got home I had decided that I wanted Josh to give me a massage, and the best times would be during the day when our daughter is napping, Ed's at work and Josh might be home between classes. I also wanted to talk with Ed about it and get his blessing. I really felt bad for Ed due to his severe depression.