"Oh, shit," he said, "I'm dead now. Oh, crap. What if she tells your Mom and Dad? They might think we're gay or something." I hope not. Maybe you can ...sk her not to tell them, I mean this is bad enough," and I got my clothes on and left.We didn't really speak about it at school, it was just too embarrassing, and about a week later, he called asking me to come over the next Saturday. I asked him about his mom and he said she had a talk with him that same day but there had been no mention of it. Maine kaha sure aunty main bula lunga. Wo dono chali gain maine apna saman set karna shru kiya waise to kutch khas tha nahi perfume comb wagaira side table per dale shaving kit bathroom mein rakhi, aur kapde suitcase se nikal ke cupboard mein arrange karne laga. Cupboard ke niche shelf mein meri nazar padi to dekha wahan kutch kapde rakhe the. Maine unhe nikala oh yeh to nighties aur undergarments the. Ek kaali lacy designer bra aur panty ek pink cotton bra aur white panty aur do nighies thi.. Yes, it hurt, and yes it was humiliating to be bent over and caned, but she also felt aroused and alive and excited even as the pain made her breath in and out through clenched teeth, and that really excited her.The third stroke made the pain more intense and Ella gritted her teeth again and threw her head back as she gasped. At least she hoped she only gasped and didn’t shriek as that would be even more humiliating to know. Ella had little enough time to think about humiliation as the fourth. Pressure.Well, hell, I wanted to say yes. I'm not a fool. I knew this was an incredibly helpful and beneficial idea. Eddie and I would not only live better than we'd been living, we'd live better than we'd ever lived -- even before our folks died. Eddie would have stability, someone to watch over him while I was God-knows-where, playing baseball, and an end to mid-term interstate and intrastate school transfers.So where was the negative side?Nowhere. Except that I wasn't in a position to carry.