Shiva now knew I was not in a position to oppose. So he innocently roamed his hands over me, intending to help me stand.He took me inside the lift and...made me stand in such a way that I was falling on him. He was enjoying the boob being touched to his body. He was pulling me towards him unintentionally. He enjoyed the touch of my boobs on his one hand and on his chest with the other boob.We reached our floor, and he took me towards my door. I took the keys out of my pocket but was unable to. I honestly think that the reason I agreed was because, considering all the sexual situations I'd been involved in with these two, it hadn't led to going to bed with anyone. And that gave me a false sense of security.So I ended up on the couch again with Emma, kissing her every way I could think of. And when she whispered she was going to practice something else, and her hand fumbled with my belt and zipper, it was obvious she needed some practice, so I let her do that while I kissed her some. I did notice what I thought to be a slightly guilty looking expression on her face, but once I had assured her that I would be back, and grinning stupidly from ear to ear, she seemed to relax a little and gave me that same wonderful smile I had finally seen her give to me earlier that day.I raced home whistling, excited beyond words and already anticipating the possibilities of what the next day might bring. I was starved of course, had three helpings at dinner, helped with the dishes without. He remembered too how David had sucked him with equal pleasure. They got together many times over the summer in situations where they could be alone to suck and wank each other. It seemed so natural and so uncomplicated. They just did it to ?get off?. Tony was terrified he was ?turning into a queer?; David showed him books in the library showing this was normal teenage behaviour of boys who turned out to be heterosexual in adult life. Yet Tony only remembered how good it felt when he took.