I still miss him. I'll always miss him. But I have that memory, and this brought it back."I smiled at her."I'm glad then," I said.Something almost wis...ful came into her eyes. She stared at me a for a few seconds, and I sank deep into those gold-flecked eyes."I have you to thank for this, in a way," she said. "I wouldn't have met Gertie, and I wouldn't be here right now, having such a good time, if it hadn't been for you." Aw, shucks," I quipped. "It weren't nothing." Yes it WAS," she corrected. ”Joan declared that she didn’t care, as she poured herself a third shot glass of the liquor. I held on to my glass, just to be on the safe side.“Here’s to getting fucked up and getting fucked,” she proffered, raising her glass in the air in my direction.I raised my empty shot glass and she quickly halted the toast, telling me I couldn’t toast with an empty shot glass. I told her that two was my limit. She chided me for being a “pansy”.“Come on,” she declared, “The funeral is over and it’s time. "Let me in, delivery" he called.The heavyset guard surveyed him under thick eyebrows "Too heavy to lift?" asked the deep brown voice."Nah, no for me, I train I do" stated Joe."Great, go and get it and leave it with me! You don't need to go in there after all." But..." Joe started."No buts laddie, go and get it and leave it with me".Joe sulkily walked back to the van, normally he would have told the guard where to get off, but years of scrapping left Joe, with no doubt, this was one guy to leave. His come blast caught her by surprise and blew her onto the floor of the trailer and squirted jizz all over her back and up turned skirt. What a mess she thought, it's a good thing the picnic is over and only a knowing handful of guests were around the property. She unbound the horse stud and crawled out of the trailer through the trapdoor.She took off her messy clothes and entered the kitchen naked. John laughed at her condition and told her to wipe herself off with a dishtowel and come over.